||[Dec. 15th, 2003|03:04 pm]
|[||State of insanity
|||||FREE BIRD - LYNARD SKYNARD||]|
Well I'm 25.
I have a lot to be thankful for in my life. A little while ago the pint would've appeared half empty through these romanticised glasses. I've had a good year and I owe it all to risk.
Year in Review:
It all started on New Years with Mike. My soul mate and bestest friend. For the second year in a row we partied up the holiday season with some of the coolest people I've eva met. His old friends from Western rock. Jan., and Feb., were pretty blah, as Mike left for Japan. I was so sad, but talking to him every couple of weeks, I'm glad and happy he's having this amazing experience.
Spring brought with it a new love and new talents. I took on a challenging management position and had a blast doing it, (for most of the summer). I managed 30 kids who made me feel youthful and vibrant again. Liz, Elisa, Vitaly, and Ashley all brought lots of joy to my life.
Spring also brought a wonderful person into my heart. Megan will never be forgotten and allowed me to realize what love I'm capable of giving. Through our relationship, I discovered what kind of a man I can be. How I truly can be myself with someone who fosters it. That I can be sexy, funny, and intelligent despite my insecurities. Though in retrospect, doomed from the start, I wouldn't have changed a thing, and am blessed she was a close part of my life.
Autumn brought heartache and questions about the future. With my cousins dealing with cancer and currently preventative chemo-therapy, death and love ones lost seemed to preoccupy my mind. I'm happy to say that Shawn is doing great and we hung out twice last week. Boys Only!! He's actually going to college and is the miracle of perseverance. He never gave up and always believed he'd be better than ever on the other side. Looks like this could be the case. With a friends father dying and recently an 18 yr friend of the family, the number 25 as a bench mark has made me think about my own mortality....
Smoking is hurting me. I feel it. I know it. I have to stop. I'd rather be hooked on another drug (not really); tobacco is evil and if you don't believe so, you suck.
My new job is phenomenal. I never worked with a better group of people. Despite the fact that there is way too much flirting going on, (I shy away) I look forward to my shifts. Laura, Dave, and I are definitely the Three Amigos. Johanna is my next "project"! lol. Okay, after the divorce. I'm making some mad money and starting to save well....
SO I can go away. So I can go far away. Not to run from, but to run too. I've had a lot of time to think lately and the one thing I regret not doing is travelling. I have a place to stay (for free!!) in London, Paris, Amsterdam, Tokyo, Budapest, Monoco, Johhangeorganstadt, and elsewhere. I feel the need to experience. I don't know what, but I don't want to wake up one day feeling I let the opportunity slip. So if I suddenly disappear in the spring, you princes and princesses of the T-dot know what I'm up to.
Jenny, Soooooo great to meet you. I had so much fun just hangin' and playin'. You build a raport and connection with someone and then actually find yourself face to face. Definitely anxious. Slightly nervous. But all fun. We'll have to play again after the holidays. Skating is a definite plan.
I'm sure I have more to say but at this point, my eyes and yours are both tired. I leave you all with the bestest of wishes for the holidays and some love.
"If I leave you tomorrow. Will you still remember me. I must be travellin' on now. So many places I've got to see......Cause I'm as free as a bird now, and this bird you cannot change."