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(no subject) [Dec. 31st, 2003|03:52 pm]
[State of insanity |peacefulpeaceful]
[music |Little Green Bag]

Starting the day off with "A Little Green Bag" and K Billy's Super Sounds of the 70's. Nice. Doo, Doo, Doo, Doo, Doo, Doo, Doo, Doo, Doo. hehehehehe

Happy New Year

Good bye
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(no subject) [Dec. 29th, 2003|05:11 pm]

This world is a two way street.

Get it??

Got it??

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(no subject) [Dec. 29th, 2003|03:58 pm]
[State of insanity |weirdweird]
[music |Born Slippy - Underworld]

I feel like I'm in Trainspotting right now, minus the heroin. A bit of Donny Darko too.

My liver hates me.

3 days and lil' 21 is back

yippee skippy

And when no hope was left in sight, on that starry starry night. You took your life as lovers often do. But I could of told you FF75 this world was not meant for one as beautiful as you.

These holidays are crazy-crazy-CRAZY.

Well Birthday was great. Actually it was awesome. Andy pool hall rocks. Bri/ee/ie (sp??) is wicked. Jake rocks. Jeannie? The best. Andrea?? Once a year, lol! Jackie, good luck. You have a great voice. Scratch that. Phenomenal voice. See you when I get to London!Shauna, hmm.

Christmas eve drunk with uncle Brian?? Weird/Fun

Christmas day, drunk PERIOD. Fun

Boxing day, not drunk? Not bad. I had some work to attend to. hehe mwahaha

I'm insane. Really!!


The A-team for New Years minus Laura is no A-team.

Ummm.....I'm bored.

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(no subject) [Dec. 15th, 2003|03:04 pm]
[State of insanity |gratefulgrateful]

Well I'm 25.

I have a lot to be thankful for in my life. A little while ago the pint would've appeared half empty through these romanticised glasses. I've had a good year and I owe it all to risk.

Year in Review:

It all started on New Years with Mike. My soul mate and bestest friend. For the second year in a row we partied up the holiday season with some of the coolest people I've eva met. His old friends from Western rock. Jan., and Feb., were pretty blah, as Mike left for Japan. I was so sad, but talking to him every couple of weeks, I'm glad and happy he's having this amazing experience.

Spring brought with it a new love and new talents. I took on a challenging management position and had a blast doing it, (for most of the summer). I managed 30 kids who made me feel youthful and vibrant again. Liz, Elisa, Vitaly, and Ashley all brought lots of joy to my life.

Spring also brought a wonderful person into my heart. Megan will never be forgotten and allowed me to realize what love I'm capable of giving. Through our relationship, I discovered what kind of a man I can be. How I truly can be myself with someone who fosters it. That I can be sexy, funny, and intelligent despite my insecurities. Though in retrospect, doomed from the start, I wouldn't have changed a thing, and am blessed she was a close part of my life.

Autumn brought heartache and questions about the future. With my cousins dealing with cancer and currently preventative chemo-therapy, death and love ones lost seemed to preoccupy my mind. I'm happy to say that Shawn is doing great and we hung out twice last week. Boys Only!! He's actually going to college and is the miracle of perseverance. He never gave up and always believed he'd be better than ever on the other side. Looks like this could be the case. With a friends father dying and recently an 18 yr friend of the family, the number 25 as a bench mark has made me think about my own mortality....

Smoking is hurting me. I feel it. I know it. I have to stop. I'd rather be hooked on another drug (not really); tobacco is evil and if you don't believe so, you suck.

My new job is phenomenal. I never worked with a better group of people. Despite the fact that there is way too much flirting going on, (I shy away) I look forward to my shifts. Laura, Dave, and I are definitely the Three Amigos. Johanna is my next "project"! lol. Okay, after the divorce. I'm making some mad money and starting to save well....

SO I can go away. So I can go far away. Not to run from, but to run too. I've had a lot of time to think lately and the one thing I regret not doing is travelling. I have a place to stay (for free!!) in London, Paris, Amsterdam, Tokyo, Budapest, Monoco, Johhangeorganstadt, and elsewhere. I feel the need to experience. I don't know what, but I don't want to wake up one day feeling I let the opportunity slip. So if I suddenly disappear in the spring, you princes and princesses of the T-dot know what I'm up to.

Jenny, Soooooo great to meet you. I had so much fun just hangin' and playin'. You build a raport and connection with someone and then actually find yourself face to face. Definitely anxious. Slightly nervous. But all fun. We'll have to play again after the holidays. Skating is a definite plan.

I'm sure I have more to say but at this point, my eyes and yours are both tired. I leave you all with the bestest of wishes for the holidays and some love.

"If I leave you tomorrow. Will you still remember me. I must be travellin' on now. So many places I've got to see......Cause I'm as free as a bird now, and this bird you cannot change."

Leonard Skynard
"Free Bird"
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I like snow [Dec. 15th, 2003|09:32 am]
[State of insanity |giddygiddy]
[music |Old Apartment - BNL]

Well so much to talk about. Unfortunately it's 9:33 and I gotta catch the subway in seconds.

Jenny. It was so much fun meeting you. I had a great time. Will elaborate later today.

Well, it's my birthday today.


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(no subject) [Dec. 12th, 2003|09:37 am]
[State of insanity |Late for Work]
[music |Fastlove - Michaels]

I've already got calls from 4 people to wish me a happy b-day. Ummmm. That's funny.

It ain't for a few days.

That's funny.

As for that?

I've got plenty of opportunity and motive,

but naw....

I'm not into it this year

I'll just play it lowki with a friend or two.

"My friends got them ladies, they're all havin' babys,
but I just wanna have some fun"

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umm....zzzzzzzz [Dec. 10th, 2003|10:26 am]
[State of insanity |Sleepy boy]
[music |Hey Jude - Beatles]

I'm tired
I gotta go to work
All day, all night
Why do I go out so late
Boo me
I want a coffee maker in my room
The new snooze button
The sun is out
It's getting warmer today
I wanna play my guitar
I wanna write a song
My rooms a mess
I gotta go

Yo Jenny. Did you delete a post? I was gonna respond by sayin' a had a lot of fun chatting too.
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Hey Cuzz... [Dec. 5th, 2003|01:51 pm]
[music |Let The Bodies Hit The Floor - Drowning Pool]

Just before work last night my cousin Carly from Chicago finally got a hotmail account, some MSN, and it was great to chat. Carly rawks and all the Steinmans in Chicago for that matter. There is such an unconditional love between our families.

See, in Toronto there are 4 Steinman boys and in Chicago there are 4 Steinman girls. None of us have sisters and none of them have brothers. In the 6 or 7 trips we've made, and equal number of weekends, we've sort of grown into those roles for each other. The cool thing is it's genuine.

I just wanted to dedicate a post to you Carly. I hope you read this now and if you want a journal of your own I'll send you a code and instructions.

Love you and Hannah.

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It's a good life if you don't weaken [Dec. 5th, 2003|01:33 pm]
[State of insanity |hyperhyper]
[music |It's A Good Life If You Don't Weaken - Tragically Hip]

I'm not sure when but I think I'm going back to my original journal. I am LIL 2-1. No doot aboot it. Maybe after the new year or something.

Got an early card from Gram and Gramps in the mail. I love baseball but come on,
"Know how it feels when you hit a home run???? *open card* That's how it feels to have you as a grandson"

I actually have never hit the ball over the fence. I've hit the fence, climbed the fence, jumped the fence, talked to the fence?? no, I don't talk to inanimate objects. no really!! So the irony of the card is pretty cool.

Keeping with the baseball theme, I failed to mention that last saturday was the league banquet. Good to see everyone. I think Dexter wants to have my children. It got a little uncomfortable b/c I hadn't seen most of the guys since August. There were a lot of questions that I just blew off. Rich just wouldn't stop, but he made me laugh so its all good.

Drove P.J. and Jeannie home. It's like our anniversary:)

I'm having a great week and loving all my work buddies and all my online friends.

Got your message Jenny and I hope you got your work done. I'll hopefully catch you online before I go to work.

"And find somewhere to go
Go somewhere we’re needed
Find somewhere to grow
Grow somewhere we’re needed"
-Hip: It's a good life if you don't weaken.
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(no subject) [Dec. 3rd, 2003|09:32 am]
[State of insanity |happyhappy]
[music |More Than Words - Extreme]

Marc-Andre Fleury, the 18 yr old rookie sensation wants to renegotiate his contract for less money so he can stay at the NHL level. In your face NHLPA!!

Last night was awesome. Went out to a cool little mid eastern place called somethin' or other, lol. Lindeman's Shiraz Cab. for $22???? Yeah, baby. Peter, Michael, Tamara and I then went to Originals and everyone wussed out. I sang my pants off for the first time in ever. I missed Runaround Sue soooooo much, I had to lead off with it. Jeannie was there and we did Paradise By The Dashboard Light. SO HOT!! I sang Here Without You which I used to go home whenever I heard. Phew. There was also this Reggae style guy who asked me to do the "other" part to Angel. Done. I drank, I sang, saw a bunch of my bestest friends and had a great night. Just had to share.

Moment of the Night: Got my jacket on and Peter's about to drive me home. More Than Words comes on and Jeannie and I (who I'm hugging goodbye) just start singing it together at like full volume. I've never sung harmony that well. I rock goddamit. I also think I'm Manic!!! LOL

"Now that I've tried to talk to you and make you understand. All that you have to do is close your eyes and just reach out your hand."
-1990 Grade 7:)

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